#AltDevBlogADay: Quality of Life in the Indie World4
Crunch time, as defined by Urban Dictionary:
The interval of time immediately before a project is due, when it becomes apparent that the schedule has slipped and everyone is going to have to work like dogs to try to complete the project in time. Crunch time usually occurs during the period between the next-to-last scheduled milestone (prior to which everyone was able to delude themselves tht the schedule had NOT slipped) and the final deadline for delivery. During crunch time, workers are in crunch mode. Prevalent in the software industry, but used elsewhere as well.
If you’re not familiar, crunch time is (allegedly, anyway) part and parcel of working in the video game industry. There are any number of reasons it might happen, and according to the bitter folk, you’re lucky if it only lasts a few weeks. Even indie developers do it, apparently (see the link). But they basically work for themselves - nobody is FORCING them to work extra hours with no compensation. If you have a deal with Microsoft to put the game on XBLA by a certain date, you might be stuck, and I’m sure it’s the indies who have teamed up with publishers who get into crunch time. At any rate, these are guys who love what they do, but I’m willing to bet nobody loves their work so much that they enjoy working twelve or more hours per day.
What I realized as I was reading the post and thinking about vael, was that I work for myself too. And I crunch all day, every day, except when I get too stressed out and resort to procrastinating - which only continues the crunch. Why am I always crunching? Because I have nothing else in my life except for school work. I don’t really have anyone to hang out with here in Ottawa, and I’m always so “busy” that I don’t sign in to IM the friends I do have. Fencing is really the only thing I do to relax, and I haven’t been going to that as often as I used to - it’s getting easier to say “I’m too busy to go tonight”. I’m going to go on saturday, for sure, and next tuesday as well. It’s hard to know if I should go on wednesdays and thursdays because sometimes I have nobody to fence with.
I’m doing really well right now, and everything is totally on schedule, and it’s awesome. But I feel stressed out when I’m not working and I could be. Even if I say “this weekend I’ll work for six hours and play games for two hours, then spend the rest of the night relaxing” I’m probably going to feel awful about that “lost time.” It sucks, and I know I’m not the only one who gets that way, and I’m willing to bet indie devs have some form of that too.
But it’s not healthy. And I’m going to work myself to death, probably literally, if I don’t do anything about it. We covered the chapter on stress in my psychology class this week, and Brittany came to visit, and she sat me down to chat about how I always seemed pissed off and a variety of other things. Eventually, I told her that I was going to keep working at better managing my time, and through that I’d easily be able to stop being so “busy” and stop isolating myself. I said the same to vael, and I’ll ask you, faithful reader, to do what I asked them both to do: send me a message every once in a while and ask me where the hell I’ve been. Don’t let me get away with being a stressed out hermit and spend all my time “working” without accomplishing a whole lot.
When I sit down and actually work, stuff gets done, and I honestly shouldn’t have problems getting everything finished. But sometimes I get too wrapped up in working, and when things are going well, I get pretty excited to finish “this one last thing” and then never really stop to relax. So help me out! I’m going to try, but when I slip, I need people to remind me to get back up. Something like that. I’ve always been awful with metaphors.
